Title: Stare into the lights my pretties
Date: 2018-07-10 22:50

[![stare into the lights my pretties' poster]({static}/images/stareintothelights.jpg)]( https://stareintothelightsmypretties.jore.cc/ )

I'm an anxious person, with *trust* issues: I'm using
[Tor]( https://www.torproject.org/ ) on a daily basis, VPN when I can't,
encrypt everything (chat, emails, backups, data at rest, …), use hardened
environment on my computers, I'm the one who asks "why" when someone is
asking me personal information (and often replying "no way."). I don't use my
credit-card if I can avoid doing so, I pay as much as possible in cash,
I don't like to give a State ID to take
the train, I don't trust my smartphone for anything critical and I don't like
using it at all, I don't have a twitter/facebook/google/whatsapp/instagram/… I
don't trust my ISP nor my LAN, I'm spending time writing/contributing
to/helping privacy-enhancing technologies, …

But I often struggled to convey the reasons why I'm acting like this. Do I have
anything to hide? No one care about me and my data? "Everyone is on
Facebook, why don't you join in?", "Don't be paranoid, no one is watching you."
And it's truly saddening me to be unable to make people understand why
I'm convinced that my behaviour is both justified and necessary.

[Stare into the lights my pretties](https://jore.cc/film/stare-into-the-lights-my-pretties/ )
is a 2 hours long documentary by [Jordan Brown](https://jore.cc/bio/), about our
relationship, as a society, to our pervasive use of technology. 
It's also a wonderful way to explain to people how I might see the world, and
thus my ensuing behaviour. It incorporate elements about privacy, manipulation,
surveillance, addiction, … making
[Chomsky](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Noam_Chomsky),
[Debord](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Guy_Debord),
[Foucault](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Michel_Foucault),
and [Mumford](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lewis_Mumford) resonate.

I highly recommend [watching it](https://stareintothelightsmypretties.jore.cc/), and showing it to others.
Don't worry, it's a [free production]( https://stareintothelightsmypretties.jore.cc/about/ ) released under [CC BY-NC-SA]( https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-nc-sa/2.0/ ):

> This independent film was made with no budget (adding to its authenticity)
with no affiliations, is not-for-profit, and is released to the world for free
for the purposes of critical discourse, education, and for cultivating radical
social and political change.

If you want to know more about this, you should check the "Excerpts, References and/or Citations" part of the credits.